A post began in January of ’14 after spending 24 hours in NYC to witness sElf perform their debut record Subliminal Plastic Motives. A review of sorts.
I take risks for music. Sometimes I lay it all on the line for an experience that would haunt me if missed. My younger, less in-tune sElf didn’t care, the present is all that mattered.
I was immersed in a job I deplored. Without a solid new prospect, I walked away after my term ended. At the moment, all I could think of was freedom from the shackles this monotonous five day a week slog presented. Fast forward some, I was presented the opportunity to move into my girlfriend’s condo; she knew I was struggling to pay rent after cobbling a few odd jobs together to form a paltry monthly salary. The relationship had heated up, and the alternative to her offer was finding as many roommates as possible.
Matt and Cool J said it best, “Cause when you’re broke, your middle name is so-what”. Shame didn’t exist in the conversation between my girlfriend and I when she asked what I could afford to pay her in rent. Her face remained stoic as I broke down my expenses and income. A brief period passed in silence – seconds felt gelatinous – and she presented her plan, or financial expectation, of me officially shacking up beside her. She cared for me, this landlord was generous: her rent request was attainable, it might even leave a -tiny – surplus at the end of the month.
Matt Mahaffey, the pop mastermind behind sElf, announced at the end of October his act was going to be playing 2.5 months from now in New York City to commemorate a re-issue of their wide-ranging debut Subliminal Plastic Motives. My financial woes didn’t exist after this announcement was made. A sElf gig in New York City, my favorite city like ever, wasn’t going to be a special opportunity; this was an obligation. Instinctually I fired up Southwest Airlines’s website to see the new depth of the red my financial situation would be.
“I’m struggling to hear this, you’re paying me a subsidized rent because of your work situation. And I hear now you’re going to New York City to see a band”, said my girlfriend. A band, please, girl.
“Well, yeah…but with rent, I can’t swipe my credit card through your wallet; Southwest happily accepted it,” I sheepishly said.
When you’re only making so much per month, your line of credit is the equivalent of a side hustle, without it, you’re incapable of doing anything besides groceries and rent. Subliminal Plastic Motives was worth any titanic-like battle between my girlfriend and I.
This record strutted down a different path: it was distortion heavy, the grunge feel was there thanks to Mike Mahaffey’s guitar work. But jazzy piano samples, purple-robed funk, crunchy bass interspersed with lounge-ready piano renditions made it unique. A 90s record ran through an anti-status quo filter.
Mahaffey and his crew ripped through the record in its entirety at the semi-intimate Gramercy Theatre in NYC. His sElfies, a tribe of fans following his quirky and funky pop movement, packed this 500 person capacity venue.
The beauty of a 20-year-old record is the time it’s had with listeners. A fan, perhaps one from its inception, has spun that record countless times — maybe the disc even lost its life after too many plays. sElf being an act who only toured so much, and wasn’t one to consistently play gigs in the 00s, most songs off this record had never been experienced live. The energy and enthusiasm coursing through the venue was palpable. I was amped!
We place the needle down on a record from our youth hoping for that nostalgic period; maybe it’s an escape from our current reality and a yearning for a simpler time. I was ready to be transported back in time.
Mahaffey is a loud and proud Prince fan. He marches onto the stage holding a wax copy of SPM as Prince’s “1999” instrumental kicks in; Matt adlibs over the music:
I was 20 when I wrote this, forgive me if it’s old as fuck/The scene was all grungy there was Big Muff pedals everywhere/ you try to run from my distortion you know I didn’t even care/ They say 2000 ZERO ZERO party over/ Tonight we’re going to party like it’s 19-95. 2000 ZERO ZERO party over/ Tonight we’re going to party like it’s 19-95. Don’t you wanna go, don’t you wanna go back to 19-95…
Upon completion of “1999”‘s new verse, the quartet tore into SPM’s opener, “Borateen”. After ripping through the album at a blistering speed, the treasure chest was unveiled:
- Brooklyn (intro)
- Dielya Downtown
- Glued to the Girl
- Trunk Fulla Amps
- Empire State of Mind (teaser)
- cont. Trunk Fulla Amps
- Meg Ryan
- Titanic (featuring I Fight Dragons)
Today, during what is a national pandemic, the thought of traveling cross-country to experience music is surreal. This opportunity presented itself, and I took a chance. Reminiscing on this event makes me grateful for gambling on my relationship and credit score. Nothing should be taken for granted because uncertainty is real. sElf in NYC, performing the record that introduced me to their movement, created an adventure; one that was once in a lifetime. You don’t have to understand the last sentence, only so many can fathom what music presents to us.
sElf is an act that altered my musical and friendship trajectory. This light review is a much needed flashback and reminds me why we become so invested in music. The timing is irrelevant, what is transpiring around me doesn’t matter, full-time I’m buckwild for sElf.
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